Has my Lord thought of me atleast now? Did He laud me to be fit for His grace?
Charanam 1
daya cEsi nA mATalella nA
tallitO palikina kolla²
nayamuga viNTi mI³ valla nEDu
nA manasunanentO callanAye (i)
daya-cEsi → compassionatelynA → mymATalu → words-ella → all nA tallitO → with my motherpalikina → spokenkolla → lootnayamuga → with fervourviNTi → heardmI-valla → because of YounEDu → today nA manasunanu → in the mind-entO → muchcallanAye → became cool (i)
I listened with fervour the loot of all words spoken about me by the Lord compassionately with my Mother; today, because of You, it has became very cool in my mind.
Charanam 2
unnata dayakAsakoNTi nEnu
bannamulaku pAlaiyuNTi
kannulAra mimu kaNTi nEDu
karNAmRtapu mATa viNTi svAmi (i)
unnata → highestdayaku → for grace-AsakoNTi → aspirednEnu → Ibannamulaku → for sufferingspAlaiyuNTi → undergoingkannulAra → as a feast to the eyesmimu → YoukaNTi → saw nEDu karNa → to the ears-amRtapu → nectarine mATa viNTi svAmi (i)
I aspired for the highest (form of) grace; I had been undergoing sufferings; today I beheld You as a feast to my eyes; I heard words which are nectarine to my ears; has my Lord thought of me atleast now?
Charanam 3
palu⁴ rUpamulu tAnu bUni nannu
bAdhiJci vEDka jUcina
palumAru nannu Ecina puNya⁵
pApamu hari centa kAniyEmandu (i)
palu → manyrUpamulu → formstAnu → HebUni → assumingnannu → mebAdhiJci → afflictingvEDka → funjUcina → even if watchespalumAru → many a times nannu Ecina → deceivepuNya → meritspApamu → demerits-sinshari → Lord Haricenta → withkAni → only-Emandu → what shall I say (i)
Even if the Lord watches the fun by afflicting me assuming various forms, and/or even if he deceives me many times, all the merits and demerits are with Lord hari only; what else can I say?
Charanam 4
bhUmini puTTaga lEnu bhUyO
bhUyO harini namminAnu
tAmasamunu tALa lEnu vara
tyAgarAjAptuDu madi⁶ lOnu (i)\t
bhUmini → in the WorldpuTTaga → be bornlEnu → shall notbhUyO-bhUyO → again and againharini → Lord HarinamminAnu → I have believedtAmasamunu → delaytALa → bear-withstandlEnu → not able tovara → blessed tyAgarAja-AptuDu → benefactormadi-lOnu → in the mind (i)\t
I shall not be born in the Earth again and again; I have believed Lord hari; I am not able to withstand the delay; has my Lord – the benefactor of blessed Thyagaraja - thought of me in His mind atleast now?
Renditions
Variations
1kRpaku pAtruDan(a)ni kIrtiJcinArA
- In some books this is given as anupallavi.
3mI valla
– In all the books it is given as ‘nI valla
’. The addressing of sage Narada by Prahlada in Charanam 2 is as ‘mimu kaNTi
’. Therefore, in this Charanam also, it should be ‘mI valla
’.
6madi lOnu
–this is how it is given in all the books. However, it should be ‘madi lOna
’.
Commentary
This Kriti forms part of dance-darama ‘‘‘Prahlada Bhakti Vijayam’’’.
2
kolla – This word means ‘plenty’, ‘plunder’, ‘loot’. As it stands, the word should qualify ‘nayamuga’ (kolla nayamuga). However, in that case, the word ‘palikina’ is left alone and the sentence cannot be translated properly (unless it is ‘palikinadi’). Therefore, it has been joined with ‘palikina’ - ‘palikina kolla’ – meaning ‘the loot of mentioning’. The very mention of about him (Prahlada) by the Lord to Mother (Lakshmi) is considered as a ‘loot’ by Prahlada.
4pala rUpamulu tAnu bUni
– This indicates the state of mind of Prahlada that he did not see anyone other than the Lord in any of the forms – be it His father or others who participated in tormenting him; same is the case with the methods adopted - like poisoning etc - to torment him. This is substantiated by the ensuing statement that ‘puNya pApamu hari centa gAni
’.
5puNya pApamu hari centa
– All the merits and demerits are with the Lord. This is the act of surrender (zaraNAgati
) as described in Srimad-Bhagavad-Gita, Chapter 18-